Good Morning Kymt (Keeper of My Thoughts-Holy Spirit)
Last night as I struggled to turn the TV off (early), I asked youwhy I hated to go to bed so much. Once i get there, I'm always glad. Such a warm, welcoming place to be. So, I asked you, for a change, why? It seemed as if you reached right into my head and spoke to me; it seemed as though you were just waiting for the right question.

It isn't the busyness of the day to come; it isn't the work or the demands that will be upon me. (Most of them are very pleasant!) Even the things I love to do, like making greeting cards, embroidering a crazy quilt, playing the piano---even these things don't lure me to bed so that I can get up and start fresh. Why? Because what I long for, what I find as I stay up into the night, is "me time". The works of the day, so to speak, have no more demands on me, not even my creativity. I have punched out. I can do what I want to do---TV? Whew!! I would think I could come up with something better than that!! But, I am too tired to consider much else, aren't I.

So that's what I want, isn't it. I want permission to stop--permission to just sit and do nothing. No that's not it is it. What I really want is permission to sit and listen---to the birds, the breeze in the trees, the blowing of the furnace, a good piece of music, consideration of the day spent, the thoughts you would stir in my heart. But---by the time I give myself this permission, I am rather spent, so I let the TV feed me, don't I.

Will you help me change this wasting cycle? Please. Move me, if you must, as one who walks in sleep, until i find the balance in work, play, and "doing nothing".

Guide me Kymt. Do not only keep my thoughts, but be my thoughts.

into the Son

What a joy has been this weekend.

Yes, I did watch a movie tonight, but I wasn't hiding :) Thereis a difference :)

Sabbath was full and restful. The sun shone; I played with the dog; took her for a walk in the woods; sat by the fire and read; prayed. All good.

Today, Sunday, J and I worked together quite a bit. We chipped a lot of brush and shopped for a stand for our new TV. I brought christmas cactuses ? in from out doors (getting ready for a frost). I moved a hutch (getting ready for J to tear a wall down :)

It's just been good:) No hiding; even got up early to get a good start on the day.

Now it is getting late and I must get to bed. Tomorrow is a work day and I will HAVE to get an early start :)

God is so good, so merciful, so loving. He is always there, waiting for me; woeing me! Haven't spent much quality time with Him today; but He is here and so am I :)

Sylver

In the Bushes

Had a great day today. Learned some new things. Got out of my comfort zone and prevailed!

Got home from work and relaxed. Sat and watched 2 movies (could fast forward through the commercials) :) Sat in a cold room, wrapped in a blanket. The movies were good ones. One based on a true story--poignant (? sp.) and having a happy ending. The other was a sweet romance; a gentle story.

Still, even as I started the second, I knew I was in the bushes---hiding. Tomorrow promises to be a very busy day catching up from four 10hour work days coupled with an hour commute each day. Nothing bad about it, just full:)

So, why did I go to the bushes instead of to Him, or even to bed? I am tired, but the sooner I go to bed, the sooner I must start the chores of tomorrow. I will enjoy them, mostly. So, why do I feel like I am hiding in the bushes?

I think it is an escape from reality (even when reality is good?) Weird.

I'm glad that I know He is still coming to walk with me. I'm glad He still calls to me--"Where are you? What have you done?" I'm glad I can come to Him and say, "I don't know. Will you walk with me awhile?" He always says, "yes."

Walk in the Sonshine! Get out of the bushes!

Walking in the Sonshine

Well, it is late and I am tired, but here I am, pondering.

I have been thinking this week about Adam and Eve. In Genesis 3, we find that God walked with them in the Garden of Eden. Imagine, He stepped on the earth, sized Himself to us, perhaps put His arm around Adams shoulders. He talked with Adam; talked with Eve. How He loves them.
Then, they listen to another; choose another way; find themselves feeling guilty; hiding from the One who created them and loves them still.

Today we still hide. We think we are seeking a relationship with Him, but how often are we truly hiding. Afraid to be seen by Him for who we really are; afraid to have the "thing" that we cling to seen by Him, we hide. We hide in busyness; we hide in movies, intemperance--(drink, food, clothes, even exercise!) All overdone, hiding.

He calls us with His everlasting love. He calls us from the bushes. He sends us out of the Garden for our own good. And He comes with us. We walk in the Sonshine. We are warm, at peace. We are free to be all He intended us to be. He helps us. He walks with us. He walks ahead of us. He has a plan for me and it is better than the plan I have for myself! Jeremiah 29:11-14

Walk in the Sonshine!!